live in sunshine

I don’t even know why I bothered applying for this prepaid credit card, I can’t even load money onto it for while I’m away. 

Might as well just try and stick it out with good old Halifax banking while I’m out there, probably more bloody understandable that this Payoneer website… urgh. 

nearly 23 years old and I still cannot handle mornings. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. 

holy molasses I’ve only got 3 more days until I fly to LA. SCAREDEXCITED. help. I feel rather underprepared.

So I’ve been venting in my notebook about my fears and stuff about the summer (trust me, it’s positive and cathartic for me and I need to do it to move past it) and I’ve got onto the train of thought of remembering myself 4 or 5 years ago, before university, 

I don’t even recognise myself as the same person since then. I’ve changed and grown and developed so much, to the point now where I recognise that I am a capable, fairly grown up, adult in many aspects. 

And until this moment, this exact evening, I’d never even considered how different I am. For the better. I used to be a fucking idiot. Anybody else found this has happened to them ?

i forget how much i love scented candles until I light one and then I’m all WHY DON’T I LIGHT THEM EVERY DAY they smell pretty